New Year.
Posting once every four months is not cool on a blog. That is not a blog. But every day is a new day. So I'll start from here anyway. 2009 has kicked off. I feel like I'm treading water since I'm still in WV for a few days after the holidays. In a few hours I catch the plane back to STJ to jump into my life again, fresh in a new year with new energy. If nothing else for this new year, I want to feel alive every day, to feel that I have lived every day. One day can change everything, and every day is brand new. I have a choice to live fully with my heart and soul each day, or to go through the motions of my daily routine blindly. Living fully means to me to be aware of the present moment, and decide if my present feelings, words and actions "feel right" in my soul. Good or bad, if I can say that I've followed my heart and soul through my actions and decisions each day, then I can close the day in peace.
Labels: living, peace, present, soul
Who's a junkie?
I spend many late nights online, half working and half browsing around sites and emailing. You'd think I'd take a moment to post to my own blog. Just takes motivation at the right time, like anything else. I haven't posted since May?! That was a whole season ago! Since then I've switched careers, had family down, taken a few trips and made plans for more. Why else work my tail off if I don't take interludes to go see new things and meet new people?
Mom's down tomorrow for a few days. Big birthday weekend. Just hauled out our boat (friend's boat, handed responsibilities over to me) this week for a cleaning and painting. Fingers crossed it's finished by the weekend.
Memorial Day weekend
Summer is official with Memorial Day weekend! Ok, maybe we don't really notice much difference in seasons here on STJ, but we do notice hurricane season, low-tourist season and warm waters with jellyfish and tarpon. Summertime takes on a different meaning but still is a season of its own. The Beach-to-Beach Power Swim will be this Sunday and I look forward to that. I swim like molasses but I love being out there in the open ocean. The event draws a neat crowd of people, too. Hopefully the great whites will be taking a holiday and sunbathing elsewhere.
Wind Under My Wings
After the Series 7 episode last week and a brunch with my boss this weekend where he basically said that I have no services, talents or knowledge to offer to market myself anywhere in the world...I'm feeling like a talentless loser. Just when I think I've got a plan and oomph to put behind it, the air got knocked out of me. It wouldn't be quite as bad if I didn't hold my boss and his opinions in such high regard. It also wouldn't be so bad if it was only me beating myself up. When you have someone else confirming your worthlessness, you wonder if perhaps it really is true. I can feel it eating away at me this week, making me listless. I need a good dose of verification of my own self worth.
So close, and yet...
...and yet, so far away.
Again, the Series 7 came close to being under my belt but still didn't get notched in. I barely missed passing by a few points, again with the
same score as when I took it the first time. I really thought I had it! I
knew the information. Test-taking skills alone played a big part. There's an interesting strategy to approaching the questions and the way the answers are presented. Any way you put it, though, I didn't pass but gave it an honest effort.
Series 7
Tomorrow, tomorrow! Series 7 exam, take #2. Fingers crossed! My weekend was spent with my head in the books and test quizzes...then literally in the books when I'd nod off. I feel good about it; if I don't know it now, too bad. I'm as ready as I'll ever be, so let's go! 7-hour-long exam, sitting in a cubicle staring at a computer. Yikes. Test-taking skills alone are important. More later...after tomorrow.
Desperate Housewives make use of blogs
This NY Times article, "
When the Ex Blogs, The Dirtiest Laundry Is Aired" brings to light the emerging trend of blogging and America's wonderful twist. According to the article, 1 in 10 internet users maintains a blog these days! That's a lot of discussion out there! And women are using their blogs to exploit their cheating husbands, expose dirty secrets to the public and ruin the reputation of loved ones. Kids, teens and students now deal with cyber-bullying regularly. I know that my own text messages can sometimes set my mind spinning or my mood kicking. Seemingly nothing in my physical environment has changed, only a hasty communication from the airwaves changes everything. Powerful but so fleeting. Oh the power of the internet! In its power and its disgrace lies its beauty and freedom.
Labels: blogging, internet
